So I have wanted to post something here for quite sometime now but just can't figure out what because everytime I start with something I lose interest or calm down from my rantstastic state. I honestly don't want my blog to be only rants about things because that doesn't exactly make the best thing to read about how unhappy I am all the time or how angry I am with the world all the time because of little silly things. But there are many other things I've needed to talk about that I just....haven't or have forgotten that I can. Better things then ranting or being upset with something. So here it goes. Hopefully I will not hate this post half way through & decide to redo it or do something else.
So where to begin. What all has changed in my world recently?
I work out at Thrillvania now which I have to say I love so very much. The people out there are more then amazing &the energy is grand & scaring the crap out of people is WAY more fun then it ever should be. For those of you who don't know what Thrillvania is, it's a Hunted House out in Terrel Texas that my girl worked at alot while she was younger & is working at again this year because she hadn't for the last 2 years & missed it. I just tagged along. It gives us time together doing something we are both enjoying. We also are getting paid for it which is always a plus. Trillvania's Website is there for you to browse at to come see us! We are actors in The Trail of Torment. I will be waiting for you to come play with me in my meat truck! If you do plan on coming out to see us give us a heads up first so we can make arrangements to see you for a bit while you are in the park. I like to keep my friends happy after all, or in my stomach! Haha.
In the process of working at Thrilllvania I have realized something about my actually job at Taco Delite, I feel very under appreciated there. I have worked there for 4 years & have gotten there with out a car for one of those years & I still feel not good enough for the job most days. I went to work the morning after my first weekend at Thrillvania & was soar as all get out. I whinned a bit because I didn't realize how out-of-shape I was compared to what I used to be when I played soccer working out 5 days a week for it. Even though I hurt so bad to the point where I could barley move I ran through to store to get things done. I did food, drive through, & some front too to help everyone out as my job as 3rd says I should but I still got alot of crap for it.
I understand that I took on two jobs this month & plan on keeping my responsibilities for both & I did to the best of my ability like I always do when I work my main job. After working season at hot toppic though then now at Thrillvania I feel like I should be more appricated at this point at Taco Delite. I know I ask days off more then most but that's because I have a life outside of that place. It does not revolve around my work area like it does their's. I do not plan on being there the rest of my life like some do. I want to go back to school, get a degree & have a job that works me 9-5 Monday through Friday like most people do. This "I'm not sure when I work..." drives me wide even after 4 years though I have gotten pretty used to it.
Over all, right now, I am not happy with how my job is taking me. When I am there (Which is 4-5 days out of the week no matter the hours) I work to the best of my ability that day. I give them enough heads up about the days that I need off so that life can be arranged accordingly for them & I have been there 5 years in April one of those years without a car getting rides from where every there & back. (Mostly Garland.) I know I'm not perfect there for for Ra's sake I feel I should have a bit more credit now-a-days.
Next on the agenda is my Photography.
I am back into it with as much as time allows me to be. I forgot how much I loved it. Thought my taste is different from before. I actually enjoy doing people photography for now. I still like the occasional still life or scenery shot...but Cosplay photography of kid stuff is kinda where I am right now. If any of my friend's need photoshoots of want pics of them self for some reason I am down to shot you. I may try one night to go through Thrillvania before it opens to see what I can get from it. I've never done horror type shooting so that should be interesting.
I actually plan on going back to Richland next fall in order to continue getting my degree in it. I need to set up an appointment with an adviser to see what all I still need to do. I've never actually sat down with anyone for a long period of time to get everything worked out. Now that I know I am okay with 5 days of work a week this shouldn't be too much of an issue. Over all this is exciting in my book.
All in all I have alot of ambishion for the future. October is already booked, I plan on working Hot topic again for seasonal (though who knows if this will happen), video games are back in my life & I am enjoying them to the fullest, I have a girlfriend to keep me occupied, friends that I adore, by January I want to be in toast masters, & have a permiant second job, Febuary I will be turning 21 finally, & by mid year in 2012 I want to know all the RUNES so I can be the Rune's Master for my kindred. Did I mention that this is only the muggle things that I want to do? The magics of my life is a whole different story I still have to sit down & plan out.
I think the main reason I have had such trouble writing lately is because my depression is kicking back in. I am doing my best to fight it though someday are better then others as anyone with this problem knows. I think I am starting to beat it again as I have gotten through a whole post without stopping & starting over or just quieting in general.
I just need to remember that nothing is as bad as it seems. Life keeps going, & I have people that love me.
~Cyran J. Harrington~
