So at of 8/18/2011 I have my own place with two roommates (which I guess wouldn't be my "own place" but still!). I pay my own way here no one to tell me what to do or use living situations against me for the first time in my life & all though this is stressful at least I know I have a fighting chance here! I can fight for what I want without having to worry about people using rent or something like that against me, or them controling me with it which is more wonderful then anyone can imagen. If the price for freedom is 400 dollars a month I will pay that in a heart beat then go back to what I had.
Now just to get unpacked & settled in before we have a house party to welcome ourselves & our friends! It's quite exciting.
So my mother will be homeless in 3 weeks to 7 weeks depending on a few things but I've seen this coming for sometime now. I've known since I moved out that something like this is going to happen. I did it anyways though cause she has to learn.
I've pretty much decided to play tough love with her. I will be there for her as much as much as I can but not much more then that. I've seen this coming for a while once I moves out & she had choices to make to do better now which she didn't make. Now it's time for her to live with them.
I can not take care of her & myself right now. There is no way I can have her move in with me & no way am I giving her money. She can find her own way finally. I hate that I can not pick her up as she is falling or catch her seeing how she has done it for me so many times now but that was her job. When she adopted me she agreed to take care of me when every she can. She hasn't done this for a while now & it's not my job to take care of her. I was serious when I said I would put her in a home when she got old. I won't do to myself what she did to herself even if it is the only way to live "easy." I will do everything in my power to make life the hard way because the easy way just never gets you places with as much knowledge. Plus, it's not where you end up. It's HOW you get there.
She is starting to realize what she did wrong & break down that wall of her's. But she's going back into her alcohol & weed to solve her problems which bothers me more then most know. I will not watch it though. These are her choices. She has to learn from them because I already have. I am better for it now. If she wants my help she will ask & I will tell her why I can't help her. After that it is her choice to either "fix" herself so that I can help her some or she will go on her destructive way again. We will see.
~Cyran J. Harrington~
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