Goodbye 2011- Hello 2012!

It's funny how time flies huh? It feel like just yesterday that it was last year. Mainly because it was, haha!

Last night we all said goodbye to 2011 & hello to 2012 in our own little ways. For me? I spent it laying in bed with Girlfriend ending & starting things with a loving passionent kiss. I don't think either of us would of had it any other way. It was wonderful, & I think the best FUCK YOU to 2011 because I made it out with something much better then I ever lost in 2011...Love. That's something to be more the proud of. 

Enough of that though, for those of you who have read my blog most of the way through, or kept up with it, you all know that 2011 was a pretty hard year for me but I have a good feeling about 2012. It's going to be my year to shine! Now to tell you how, because like the rest of you I have goals I want to make a reality this year as well!

1) Think more positively of myself.

I have come along way & though I am not where I would like to be there's plenty to be proud of already. I need to make sure I start seeing that part of me along with the parts I do not like about myself. 

2) Start working out on my days off. 

I really have let myself go & I honestly miss working out. It helps me with my moods & stress along with keeping my muscles from being to tense. So on my days that I have free I am going to start taking advantage of the work out area of my girlfriends apt since I will be here so much. No point not to use what is in front of me. 

3) Start looking for community activities to do. 

I've noticed how much of a home body I have become besides work, mainly because I work two jobs right now & other then that just because of life complications. So I am going to change that by adding a few more commitments into my life. 1- Toast Masters. This is an organization to help you train in leadership, & can help me boost my self confidence immensely. As soon as I have the free time I will be looking for a group to personally join within the next weeks or so. 2- Al-anon. For those of you who don't know, my mother became severely depressed & an alcoholic after Rick left her when I was eight. Unforenatly, I took most of the abuse from that. I did not do such great things either, but I was also too young to have been really taught certain things. Al-Anon are sister groups for AA people's families. The people who have been abused. This will give me a chance to help myself, help others, & make new friends. 3- Coaching Soccer. This last one I think I am looking forward to the most. I miss soccer with all of my heart & at this age it's very hard to find a team unless you are on a college team or playing professionally. I don't see me doing either of those at this point because of how my life has played out until now, but I can start a team. I plan on going to an association within the next few weeks or so to see what all I need to do for this activity & if I can get in by next season i will be thrilled. I will be a proud coach of a girls soccer team. I my be a role model to someone that doesn't have one right now. I can make a difference not only in their life, but mine. I can't wait. 

4) Starting up an Etsy shop for my photography & other misc skills I have to pull in extra cash. 

I really have let myself fall out of the photography loop & I think this is the best way to get back in. I need something to continue to keep my confidence up besides my own belief in myself, so if I get one of these going & people start buying from me I will be right where I want to be for now. I am going to continue to take picture's of my friends cosplays, & I will be offering pictures for anyone, or anything else. Then there will be my fine art work which I am going to see if I can get hung up in a cafe around town. (Dallas, Garland, Richardson, anywhere actually) 

5) Become the Runes Master of my Kindred

Runes are the divination that I have been wanting to learn for several years now, but was looking for a teach. I have one now (Whom I have spoken of before) & I am well on my way to not only learning them, but become a Rune Master of my Kindred.

6) Get back in school to continue my ASL studies. 

I miss school. It makes me feel like I'm going somewhere if I am there working towards something. Like I am getting the first part of my journey over with so I can get to the next part. I have people all around me to help me with any & every subject now I just have to use that & work my ass of to get to the next part so that I don't feel like I'm stuck anymore.

7) Get away from Taco Delite

For those of you who don't know I have had this job since I was 16. I will have been there for 5 years in April. As soon as I can though I am finding a replacement job for this though. They have been very good to me money wise but a few months ago I took a major pay cut while other people who have not been there as long & have mommy & daddy paying for everything still are getting the hours they need when I am having trouble making rent. Needless to say, it's time to move on. Today I am already going to apply for a few jobs & a few more tomorrow. Anywhere I can find besides Taco D. It's too far out of the way now anyhow seeing how I am mostly in Plano now-a-days. 

8) Forgive & Let go.

My other entries have explained this. 

9) Learn as much as I can about my own religious path. 

We know alot about how the old pagan people celebrated their holidays but it's mostly Celtic, or Nordic traditions. It's time for me to start doing things for my Egyptian gods. I also am going to start doing things on a more daily practice so that I can start perfecting certain things that I lightly know how to do.

10) Give 2012 your best.

I know this one seems a bit silly to put down but looking back on my life It's really not. I think I have TRIED to give my best all the time every year but I haven't. I have always hidden things not because I wanted to hide them but because I was worried that I would get made fun of if I showed them off, or that people wouldn't like me, or that it wasn't good enough. I'm done with that. If you don't like what you see or what you get from me you came in through the door you can leave from. I'm not changing, I'm not going to put on a false face anymore, & I'm going to let it all hang out. Tidily so though. Haha.

SO WATCH OUT 2012 HERE I COME. 

~Cyran J. Harrington~

P.S. Here's some songs for me to start of the new year with.