Showing posts with label moving. Show all posts
Showing posts with label moving. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

One year, Oh It's Been One Year


Yesterday was Girlfriend's & I one year. I'm still trying to get my head around it. 

It's been one full year since we started going out again. Not since she came back into my life but since we decided to do this crazy relationship thing that we seem to care about so much. We have are ups & downs but in the end we have seemed to come out pretty alright by it so far. There's is still alot more room to grow, as always, but we will get there with time I hope. If we don't then that will be that. The road takes us to strange places after all & it's winding so you never know what is around the corner. 

For our one year we did a little celebrating, but not to the full extent that we want to. Girlfriend's school keep her from really going out on week days & yesterday she was only running on 3 or 4 hours of sleep so we had to cute it short. We went out to Super H Mart in Carrollton to do some WithPhotos. They had two new booths we had heard about & wanted to go see & the other one was just for the cute of it all. It was a way to remember. The old booths are now anywhere from 8-9 dollars & the two new one's are 10. The new one we tried was crazy fun. It has three different cameras in it & you had to figure out which one was about to shot next. We went a little crazy in here but what was supposed to happen. What other point was there to go? Haha! 

After the photo fun we went to Stake & Shake out in Lewisville for the classiest of dinners. Girlfriend got all excited because there was a shake on the menu she could actually get due to her chocolate allergy, which was really exciting! Then, half way through it, she started tasting that bitter sweet flavor. Apparently the person who made it didn't think someone could have a chocolate allergy & accidently put a Butterfinger in it first to blend up then the Nutter butter thinking nothing of it & just kept going. 

The waiter looked rather terrified when she told him why it wasn't a good & promptly took it off the check. We weren't upset, but it was still funny. Thankfully Girlfriend didn't have enough of the chocolate to make her sick, or if she did the tiredness took it from her. While we were leaving the place fireworks were going of to one side of us so we popped a squat & watched together. As if they were setting them off for us & not the holiday that is today. It was nice, cute, classic, sappy. All the things that one year aniverseries are suppose to be. 

I think the reality of it is still sinking in me. I'm just not used to this stability thing of having one consent person in a relationship with me for quite that long. It's kinda scary really. I feel all domesticated & shit. The D word send a shiver up my spine....now to figure out a balance of being 21 & wanting to be wild while being in a relationship.

Speaking of balancing...that's all I seem to be doing lately is finding some balances in my life & making everything more stable. It's...kinda working so far? It's hard to really tell yet because things are still so crazy with change. I've been doing more things to relax as of late because i was getting myself too high strung over my own thoughts. That seems to be working pretty well, since I have taken an hour a day to myself to just do what every I want. Right now I am reading Guilty Pleasures by Laurell K Hamilton. It's something I have seen people around me read for years now & thought it would be to hard of a read since it was an "adult" book. When I picked it up off Girlfriend's shelf though it actually wasn't that hard after all. I'm almost through it within a week, I'm past the halfway mark at least. I really enjoy the writing style & the way she keeps to interested in what will happen next. I don't really like that each scene seems to drag so long but the characters are well rounded enough that I'm willing to keep going. It is hard to keep up with EVERY character even if they are mentioned a lot. I'm still looking forward to it though.

I'm hoping to get through the first 4 books of the series before we move.

Yes, we are moving in the middle of July in it's god awful heat. It's already been 100+ before July hit. I am not looking forward to actually lugging things around. On top of that we are moving to the third floor (the last time we checked) which I can't stand, but it's a compromise I'm willing to make for the extra room in the new place. I am looking forward for Girlfriend's parents to actually know I am staying with her now. She has already talked to them about it & even though they aren't thrilled with it all, they are taking it rather well. This way neither of use have to freak out when they come over & I have to hide or what not or she doesn't have to dodge a bullet every time they want to come here. It will just be... easier in general. This means I have to start paying rent & what not which is fine by me but that means less savings. I'm trying to remind myself that I have a good enough base to start with that the rest is just adding on. Then that annoying voice in the back of my head reminds me that it's not just for emergency but for my photography as well. 

I always figure something out, I normally do anyways. 

I will say that I am excited about having more space in the new apt for less money. It has two patios, a MUCH larger & better put together closet, & the kitchen is bigger & better as well. We lose the geradge but that doesn't bother me at all. We'll get some sun visors & that will take care of that mostly. I have also talked Girlfriend into looking to get some new furnishing. The stuff she has right now isn't doing a good job at what it is there for & it needs to be replaced. When she gets done with this mod we plan on going to Ikea (it's a guilty pleasure of mine) to look through to find what we need along with pricing. I'm rather excited honestly. I like buying things for a living space to decorate it with. 

The other thing Girlfriend is doing, while we pack she is going through EVERYTHING she owns (again -dances happily-) to get rid of what she just doesn't want anymore. She's finally getting tired of having so much stuff as, I think, everyone else is. There's just not room for it all which means we are most likely going to start putting stuff up for sale here, craigslist, or eBay. Right now we have a few things on Craigslist:


By the end of today I may have one thing up on eBay & maybe a few more up on Craigslist. We will see. If you are interested in any of these items you can always contact me at my e-mail, cyranjharrington@yahoo.com, or leave a comment on this blog entry.

I always feel like I never post everything that I want to on each blog post but soon I will get around to posting a bit more emotional happenings when I have them all sorted out. Seeing how this is a public blog posting raw emotions for the world to see just doesn't seem safe. Once I figure them all out I will really get around to the nitty gritty of it all, because there is a lot of emotion I need to let out for the world to see. A lot of philosophical thoughts that I want to share. It's just finding the time that I'm not avoiding them to actually type them here. 

The last & final thing I have to say before I go is...HAPPY 4TH OF JULY! :) May your evening be filled with pretty boom booms & satiety! But mostly boom booms. :3 

~Cyran J. Harrington~


Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Head Is Held HIgh

Oh man oh man, what can I say. Things are all falling in to place right now & I'm more then happy for it to finally happen.


I started yesterday at the YMCA after school program & literally I had a dream an exact scene that happened yesterday less then 6 months ago. I remember waking up from the dream KNOWING I needed to work with kids. It's amazing how my life works it's self out this way. It was the longest Da ja vu I have ever had too. That made me feel like I was closer to my spirituality more then anything in the world. I'm on to something & I'm going to keep going with it.


On the other hand it makes me feel like I'm not making my own choices that someone (Or something) else has laid out for me, which is some what nerve wracking, but I feel no ill intention behind it so I will continue chugging along. After yesterday though I feel like my life is beginning to come together for the first time in so very very long. The kids yesterday were great, & the environmental was even better. There were a few things that the kids asked/said I had a hard time responding to but I think, for a first timer, that I handled them smoothly.


I am happy with this change, & I am proud of myself for making it happen. For the first time in Ra knows how long I am looking forward to my life's future....If you only knew how good it is to say that, to say it & believe it with all of my soul. If you only.


On top of that work load I have already had someone come to me & ask me to do their wedding pictures in 2013. The grome has also asked me to do some commercial work for the company he works with. It was very exciting & quite a challenge. I took it on with the best of my ability though & have not heard bad things back so I am assuming all was well with the photos. This boost my confidence a crazy amount & gets me wanting to pick up my camera more & more. I have also been going back & looking over my old stuff to see what I can change about which photos to build some new portfolios. It's exilerating. Here are some examples.















These are just the one's I've really touched so far.I do hope you enjoy them. Man has my vision changed since I last did all this stuff. In a good way though. I understand alot of the things I didn't before after the long break. 

On top of all that the Bride that I had mentioned from the wedding above as came to me after we talked one night & told me that I helped her find a path after a while of shearing. This. Was. An. Amazing. Feeling. Last year sometime I had decided that this was the type of person I would become. The helper, the light, the thing people could look for to get them to their next step in this arms race. 

I am succeeding in this, & I can not express to you how happy this makes me.

I have wanted to be that for so long & I could never figure out why it never happened but it is now. I'm excited, I'm enthralled, I can't wait to help the next person. I'm finally living up to my own expectations for the first time &...just...yeah. It's.... riveting is the best word I could find for it. 

On top of that I have also finished the first row out of three in my Runes study, which is great & I'm really starting to get the hang of it all. The only part that I'm having a hard time with is connecting them all together once they are pulled & in front of me. Girlfriend is better at that so we are going to sit down one day (soon I hope) to help each other out. I will be teaching her the Rune's & then she will be teaching me how to work the puzzle of them. Good bonding time for us too. 

Last but not least Charming of the Plow was this past Sunday & I can see us as a group advancing which is something else that excites me to no end. We are a family unit & you can really see it all happening. We are all growing together & even though we get mad at one another from time to time, over all you can see the love. 

I can not express how great it is to finally have a family in my life. I stable one that WON'T turn it's back on me in times of anything. Even if I am being the stupidest person alive. The have helped me more then they probably know, don't want them getting a bit head after all haha, & I'm not sure where I would be right now without their help. 

Man am I happy right now. Lots of stuff to be happy about too. Lots & lots & lots. 

So the last thing on my list is saying that I have no free weekends this month. Between new job trainings, dates, & my 21 BIRTHDAY PARTY. YEAH! Then there is moving. But it's all good positive things to be doing on my weekends. 

I can't wait to see what the future holds. For the first time in a very long time I'm not scared of tomorrow. 

I am liberated after 21 years.

~Cyran J. Harrington~